Friday, 28 May 2010
♥ why should i care
ever since i searched for my fyp professor, i had been trying to get sharon.. well.. since she never try to return my call, i thought she doesnt really care what is going on with my life..
ever since i decided on my fyp professor, and had been recurited, i had been going to lab.. it's like what shamini had said.. it is very tiring, even though all we do is observe.. now that i have been to my lab, i realised now unguided i am.. my mentor is not going to be like any other mentors.. all she asked me to do was to read papers.. and after that, i had to find my professor to propose my fyp topic.. which.. was what i thought they are supposed to do.. and with my newly found determination to continue driving, i have been taking lessons concurrently.. i am tired but it will not stop me..
ever since 'once upon a time', there are so many plans made.. cycle, batam trip, malaysia trip, night safari.. and even stay over.. they remain as plans.. never move on to implement stage.. and finally, when we found a time to have breakfast before one of us leaves for a short vacation trip with family, excuses popped up..
'i have been going out and i dont think i can wake up early for breakfast..' well, 10am for breakfast is not too much, right? i have been waking up at 6am these days, i am tired too, and would certainly love to sleep in for once.. but i am willing to suppress my laziness just to meet up..
'you didnt reply me last night so i thought it wasnt on.. i have made plans already..' you were the one who confirmed with me we are meeting.. partly my fault that i didnt reply.. i fell asleep.. i guess i was tried, since i went to lab and had attended my cousin's wedding dinner after lab.. i couldnt believe i had fallen asleep too, since i didnt even take out my contact lens.. (i think i should make a habit of not wearing them when i know i am tired..)
'i am going to collect samples for my experiment..' since all the others are not going, i guess there's no point.. i wonder why we even made the plan in the first place..
so plans remained as plans.. and that is certainly so.. no surprise at all.. actually, i should be shocked that we actually had them in the first place..
then when i thought i should watch anime, for the first time this week, sharon appeared.. and she suddenly asked me all the fyp related questions, those answers are actually the information i wanted to give her the last time..
that just push me into boiling hot water..
i am not the kind of person who will be upset/angry with others.. at least i think so.. now that the series of unforunate events have occured, i dont really want to be bothered.. why should i care when no one else does?
i am pissed (?), and it seems that i am being anal.. therefore, this post is up here.. and i dont really care, since no one will ever read them..
whatever..
ever since i decided on my fyp professor, and had been recurited, i had been going to lab.. it's like what shamini had said.. it is very tiring, even though all we do is observe.. now that i have been to my lab, i realised now unguided i am.. my mentor is not going to be like any other mentors.. all she asked me to do was to read papers.. and after that, i had to find my professor to propose my fyp topic.. which.. was what i thought they are supposed to do.. and with my newly found determination to continue driving, i have been taking lessons concurrently.. i am tired but it will not stop me..
ever since 'once upon a time', there are so many plans made.. cycle, batam trip, malaysia trip, night safari.. and even stay over.. they remain as plans.. never move on to implement stage.. and finally, when we found a time to have breakfast before one of us leaves for a short vacation trip with family, excuses popped up..
'i have been going out and i dont think i can wake up early for breakfast..' well, 10am for breakfast is not too much, right? i have been waking up at 6am these days, i am tired too, and would certainly love to sleep in for once.. but i am willing to suppress my laziness just to meet up..
'you didnt reply me last night so i thought it wasnt on.. i have made plans already..' you were the one who confirmed with me we are meeting.. partly my fault that i didnt reply.. i fell asleep.. i guess i was tried, since i went to lab and had attended my cousin's wedding dinner after lab.. i couldnt believe i had fallen asleep too, since i didnt even take out my contact lens.. (i think i should make a habit of not wearing them when i know i am tired..)
'i am going to collect samples for my experiment..' since all the others are not going, i guess there's no point.. i wonder why we even made the plan in the first place..
so plans remained as plans.. and that is certainly so.. no surprise at all.. actually, i should be shocked that we actually had them in the first place..
then when i thought i should watch anime, for the first time this week, sharon appeared.. and she suddenly asked me all the fyp related questions, those answers are actually the information i wanted to give her the last time..
that just push me into boiling hot water..
i am not the kind of person who will be upset/angry with others.. at least i think so.. now that the series of unforunate events have occured, i dont really want to be bothered.. why should i care when no one else does?
i am pissed (?), and it seems that i am being anal.. therefore, this post is up here.. and i dont really care, since no one will ever read them..
whatever..
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